(I made this a few months ago when my spiritual oppression was extreme back at Job Corp. I hate that place btw)
It's not unusual to feel like there is an entirely other world other than this one. I feel as if this has been needed to be said centuries after the days Noah. demons, monsters, hybrids, Nephilim, they are all the same. Stories of old and great. I want to take these and create something fresh and new, I want to incorporate biblical accuracy into it as well, a fresh idea different from our way of thinking. Something new to the days of our generation but also what has been established since the beginning of time.
I want to make a game on a storyline based on the Bible but also a story based on current events. I keep having these recurring visions in my head, I feel extremely definite as if it’s God sent. I don’t think I can walk away from making this idea come to life. Every attempt to go off the path that was set in front of me has caused my entire being to feel in a worse state than it has ever before. I feel as if I don’t make this game I’m going to end up in hell. And I mean the hell of the bible that has been described in scripture. There is a pit waiting for me and the blood of billions of souls are on my hands. It never ceases to end. It's an endless thing that reoccurs in front of me through each and every day of my life. I see myself being tormented by the souls that were lost due to my disobedience.
To the voice I have heard from a very young age that I now recognize to be the Holy Spirit. I don’t believe anything that has happened to me at this point was without a cause. I get what the purpose of all my trauma and pain was torn into my spirit is from, I know just about the entirety of the reason why I have went through everything I have at this point, the Devil has his own influence on social media and entertainment, and now it’s my turn to create something that influences the true meaning of what it is to spread the Love of God onto others. These experiences I have been having are for this very exact moment where I’m sitting down at my desk in culinary class and am currently typing this while listening to a hard bit of corny video game playlists from their original OST’s, Primarily the current one im listening to as of this very sentence being typed is “sidekick smackdown remix” from a Friday Night Funkin modder named cow…or maybe that's just the youtuber that uploaded the video, but regardless I’m putting effort into gaining my sanity back, even with a little sense of humor. I guess…idk.
I keep seeing the people. The people don’t even have an ounce of flesh on them. They smell the blood I’ve been covered in. I don’t feel like I would be in hell for my own sins but rather almost an entire third of at least 25 Generations, some of which are already here, others of which to come. I don’t feel like a normal person. I don’t feel like after all this has happened I’m truly capable of feeling like a regular human being. My perspective of my surroundings, the people I hang around with on a daily basis and someone I thought I wouldn’t have even imagined being with under any sort of circumstances had all been plotted out by God and led me to the point of where I need to be.
I don't want the circumstances or scenarios that the lord keeps giving to me more than what they have already become.
(Which yes, I have checked to see if it was from God on Numerous occasions, I’m an overthinker, that's what I do. If I overthink anymore my brain might explode and I’ll have burrito meat for lunch, the headache pressure from the spiritual encounters be intense ash OnG. 🤕)
The visions have become too deep, I fear that if I do not lessen my pain by burning these thoughts to rest I will have my soul dropped into the deepest. pits of hell. I feel as if i'm dying whenever I try to walk away from the vivid open conscious fantasies I’ve been having. I can’t make them stop. If I dont process this onto paper or form it into creative reality I think I may lose my mind. I feel as if my soul has been dropped to hell once before. The memories are recurring but they are always so faint. I just want to do what I was put on this earth for and be content with what The Living God, Jesus Christ, The Messiah, and The Lamb gave to me.
If it had not been for these seeings in my future I may have had a different outcome. But all my sanity being tested has put me in the place that I am now, and I see who God TRULY is for all that his meant to be. There is no silver lining or backsliding for me in the kingdom of God. Or any prophet in that matter. And when I say this I don’t mean it to say nothing good comes out serving the Living God. What I mean is that as a prophet, or any prophet of that matter, the only beneficial outcome is to serve God and stand alone while doing so, because there will a lot of standing alone in store for anyone who wants a relationship with God but its a strangely unique process when standing alone for Jesus as a prophet. Or as some would say, “The mouthpiece of God.” I almost don’t want to care about it anymore, you feel as if you're the only one that gets the picture that God is trying to show you but everyone who is a part of putting the pieces together are being carnally stubborn, almost to a point where you wonder if you're hearing him at all. But hey :) not always as bad as it looks.
Could always get worse…
-I MEAN BETTER!!! 😃 😗 🥹
“Could always get better!!!!! :3” - (quote not from an angel holding a gun to my head.)
(jk angels don't do that.)
I complete my assignment on this earth and then I move onto the next life as described in the bible. I know my soul has been created for this very purpose. Let me do a lil prayer real quick shawty ;)
“This I command in Jesus name, I will prevail. And Lucifer, you know where I’m at, if you want the smoke, as you have made clear since before the moment I was conceived out of my mothers womb and had my naked body wrapped around her loving arms. Come catch these praying hands, you and the anti-christmas can catch these CHRISTIAN motherfreaking hands my guy, I want the smoke cus I know Jesus got my back, and we on that timing. I’m not playing with yall demons or yall clown behind kingdom, Jesus and my crew gon swerve yall table of demonic plotting and mess up ya chess game cus you know it’s time to call it quits, just you wait. It’s all gonna happen in God’s timing. Consider this a threat to all those who practice lawlessness through witchcraft. I have no problem putting my hands on you, through prayer and spiritual warfare of course. Good day to you all, ESPECIALLY the one that I know will be fighting me in hand to hand combat in my 20’s or something (…that may be a metaphorical vision I had im not sure but cool beans buddy, I’ma prep up just for you) . I’m waiting on you. Don’t worry you won’t be making it out without me sending you down as a message to the others first. You can trust and believe that. IN JESUS NAME. Amen.”
Well ya. . . . . . . . . . . .thats all I gotta say really. Let me know if you wanna advocate to the cause. Just be sure to have it on ya heart from the lord don’t start something and not be willing to finish ya feel me 😏 😌 🤌 👌 🗣️🗣️🗣️ 🔊🔊🔊 🔥🔥🔥 Keep it 100% OnG 🗣️🗣️🗣️ 🔊🔊🔊 🔥🔥🔥
I swear I’m losing it bro like I'm genuinely off my bonkers man I’m losing my shit bro like some please call 911 the kids in the basement need feeding like.
(I swear I genuinely feel like someone is gonna take my sense of humor too seriously one day. I mean what I say about the talk about God but if you not in tune bro I don’t know if you can keep up with the humor I be tossing at people from my kitchen bro like. My sense of humor comes off as an “I don’t wanna be here, but here we are energy.” Im like the living version of burger pants but he talks to a voice that directs his second to every move. And I mean EVERY MOVE.
My life is like a mixture of Job, Joseph, Jonah, and David ‘from the book of genesis’ at once so please understand I may be having somewhat of a mental anxiety attack rn but the way I rub it off is by coping with biblical references and a dab of dark humor. I'm all good here. I've always been like this since I was like 5, it’s just evolved over time to get me where I am now.)
To God be the Glory, see yall again soon. Probably with another one of these. . . (o_o)
smell ya later monkeys!!!